I’m so glad to know that the thought of me crossed your precious mind. How are you, beautiful?
i miss all of that too. i miss you so fucking much. i wish i could come see you soon
First and foremost, let me say that I absolutely love my grandmother. I’ve lived with her since my mother passed away but we’ve never really gotten along.
She was raised by a rasict, close-minded father that was incredibly abusive and it rubbed off on her. She’s never been the type of person that you could have a laugh with. I’m the total opposite. I stand up for what I believe in wholeheartedly and I always tend to piss her off somehow (not on purpose).
She’s 74 now and she hasn’t changed a bit. Except now she has emphysema and is 100% helpless. So, I spend majority of my time waiting on her hand and foot. She doesn’t appreciate anything I do at all. But whatever I do it anyway because she’s family.
I never get any sleep because she wakes me up about 4 to 5 times a night. So I’m always exhausted. I just started a new job today that TOTALLY sucks but it’s a paycheck and I need it. But I’m just so tired all the time. I can’t go anywhere or do anything fun because she needs me there 24/7.
I’m not here to throw a pity party. I just needed to vent. I just wish she would appreciate me and not take me for granted. I wish I could have a night to myself to do whatever I want. I wish I could find a job that was worth my time. I wish I could get a full nights rest. I wish I was somewhere far away.
I wish. I wish. I wish.